Hmmm. . . What to write? I feel like I have a lot on my mind (imagine that) but here I am sitting here and nothing is coming out. I am on vacation . . . we are on vacation. I think this might be our first real vacation as a family. No doctors, no conferences, no procedures, nothing. Maybe that is why I am having a hard time writing. Things have been good lately though. This trip has been good for us. Carter has been so happy.

Today, I found myself dreading the thought of going back home on Saturday. Back to reality. I got Carter’s new crossover stroller/wheelchair ordered and it should be waiting for us when we get home. Tuesday starts on with our normal doctor’s appointments. I guess I can only hide so long.

We went to dinner tonight. We went to Dick’s Last Resort. If you have ever been there, you know how they treat you. Well, when we first walked in one of the guys looked at Carter and said “what, so you can talk? Then why do you have that thing in your mouth? (Referring to C’s pacifier). I actually told my son to lift up his shirt and tell the guy to leave him the hell alone. Yep. And he did it. And the guy looked shock. And they left him alone. Point taken. I do get so tired of adults especially looking at him weird or making comments about his pacifier or his stroller. Seriously. Do I look at them and question them about their vices? The fact that Carter needs a stroller cannot be changed. His pacifier however, is a different story. I figure, one day, he won’t want it anymore. Maybe when he goes on his first date! Really though I don’t understand why people care so much. Why are we so fast to judge others? Should we be looking at ourselves? Is it our job to judge others?

I am thinking that we need to leave the judging to our God. Romans 14:13 says, “let us not therefore judge one another anymore: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumbling block or an occasion to fall in his brother's way.” I have learned something through all of this with C. I have learned that you shouldn’t judge. You never know what is going on in someone’s life. You never know why they do what they do, why they make the decision they do, etc. I don’t understand why we have gotten to a place where we think it is acceptable to constantly criticize and judge people. Why can’t we just see people for their good? Why don’t people strive to help others, to support them, to care for them? I guess I could question this forever.

I guess I have rambled enough. We are good. I am good. Vacation has helped. I like being renewed. I will be ready to go back to reality ready to fight. For my son. For his right to be himself. For his right to not be judged.